Broken.

So recently, i've been going through a lot in life. Imagine calling the person you love most "bestfriend". And he's not just a "bestfriend", but he was your past. It hurts, so much. But you just gotta be contented with the things you have left. And i have to be happy. That at least, i still have him somewhat or another and i am willing to wait. Be it days, weeks, months or even years. As long as the feelings are still there, i will wait for you. It's supposedly to be our 19th month tomorrow.

Happy 19th month

And i realize, i'm not the only one going through all this fucking bullshit. My friends are going through a lot too. I don't get it. I'm able to give them advice and am able to help t try to get over their heartbreaks but why can't i fucking apply it to myself? I don't have the fucking rights to help them, because i can't even help myself. But i really hope my gals are alright. I love you girls. So much.

And today, during english, Mdm Aishah showed us a video. It was quite a motivational video and here are the importance of A-Z's in life if you wanna be successful in anything you wanna do. Be it studies, love, your future. It helps.

A - Avoid negative people and things.
B - Believe in yourself.
C - Consider things from every angle.
D - Don't give up, Don't give in.
E - Enjoy life today, yesterday is gone, and tomorrow may never come.
F - Family and friends are hidden treasures.
G - Give more than you plan to.
H - Hang onto your dreams.
I - Ignore everyone that tries to discourage you.
J - Just do it.
K - Keep trying. It will get better.
L - Love yourself first and most.
M - Make it happen.
N - Never lie and stride a fair deal.
O - Open your eyes and see things as they are.
P - Perfect practice makes it perfect.
Q - Quitters never win, quitters never win.
R - Read, study and learn about everything in life.
S - Stop procrastinating.
T - Take control of your own destiny.
U - Understand yourself first, then understand others.
V - Visualize.
W - Want it more than anything else.
X - X-celerate (Accelerate) your efforts.
Y - You are unique.
Z - Zero in for your targets and go for it.

With this, i'm more determined to fight. And all of you out there, keep fighting. Never give up. Because you wouldn't know if you never try. Your efforts may come to good use one day.