I'm not over you.

Have been neglecting my blog here and I'm really bored so I've decided to just blog. Spent Thursday-Saturday with my bb, Erica. It's really funny how the both of us hated one another, and only started talking about 3 weeks ago and when we met, we talked as if we knew each other for ages. It's really amazing how I can pour out everything to her and how she's able to tolerate me. Had a 2 hour h2h talk with her and it felt great finally letting it all out. I thank God for bringing EricaTheodoraTanYanZhen in my life.

Our dearest Leelee also gor admitted to the hospital. Really glad that she's fine now and that she's recovering.

Finally talked to HIM yesterday. I mean, I didn't let out EVERYTHING I wanted to say but. At least I did. Pretty amazing how I was able to control my tears and how I was able to hold in my anger. I was so angry I almost slapped him.

To you, stop doing all these for revenge. You told me you didn't give up on me. Then what? Do you really love her? Love's not a game. Do not play with it. I don't even know why it's so hard getting over you. This is fuckin' ridiculous. It's fuckin' crap. I need to know how you feel about me. Need to know what you're trying to do. Ck, I miss you. And I know you miss me too. It's fuckin' 18 months. Not 18 days. Not 18 weeks. FUCKIN' 18 MONTHS DUDE. Wake up. Face reality. Its still me. Not anyone else. I still love you. And like I said, as long's the feeling's thr, I'll wait. 我爱你。