That day.

I know it's been ages since i actually updated this darn thing. But now, i really have no courage to talk to you face to face or even by text anymore. I have no where else to tell you, except here. I'm sorry. This will be a lengthy post for my boyfriend, Caleb.

It all happened when i ran away from home. I stayed over at XueTing's house the night before and the next evening, i came to Regent Heights to stay at my Godsister's place, Jessica. When i arrived there, i didn't give much attention to anyone at the court except for talking to Jessica. I was the bad girl back then. Asking around for a cigarette and screamed like a retard. After i got my puff, Jessica and i sat down and began talking. The day before, i broke up with my ex-boyfriend, Kenneth and began crying. That's when i noticed you. You were wearing HGSS P.E shorts and using that HP shirt. Playing basketball. You were my definition of hot then.

Still, i was in love with Kenneth. I forgot about you and tried my best to win Kenneth's heart back. That's when i found your facebook. We began talking and soon, slacking at upwag. The slacking soon brought us to texting each other. At that point of time, i knew Jessica loved you. I had to lie to her saying i was texting Joel when i was actually texting you. At times, i even had to change your contact name to my other friend. A few days later, we became closer, then i found out you had a girlfriend. I knew i had no hope, but when we got closer and started texting everyday, you gave me hope. I had chance. And we got steady on 10th June 2010.

Everyday i was happy, happy that i finally had you. But did i really have you? Yes,i had you. But not your heart. I knew you still loved her. You still kept pictures and text messages of her. I felt depressed, thinking of ending this relationship, so you may go back to her, if there was still a chance. But i chose to hold on. Our relationship has ups and downs, but we never failed to stay together.

But nearing our 4th month, on the 6th October 2010, 8.50pm, you proved me wrong. We broke up. Because of a lie. You don't know how hurt i was. Depressed, disappointed, angry. For the first time in my life, i cursed God, cursed him for making me suffer. I guess, God felt what i was going through and decided to give me back to you. We got back together soon after that. And on our 4th month, 10/10/10, you surprised me at my doorstep, lighting up candles for me. Saying"I love you". No one has ever done that for me, really.

Next, came your birthday. I never felt this stress when planning for a guy's birthday. Normally i'd just buy a gift + card and then give him. Watch him blow out his candles and that's all. No celebration, no nothing. But for you, i had to make it special. I had to make it big. And it wouldn't have happened without your friends. Your friends, they're important to you. You need them okay? They're the ones who'll be there for you when i'm not there.

Then the 35 days, yes. It was hard for the both of us. Not seeing each other for such a long period of time. Everything started going wrong at that period of time. I got so afraid that anything might happen. But you told me nothing would happen, you told me to stay strong because i was always crying. Well, merry christmas, happy 6months and happy new year baby! :D

My birthday, you got me a ginormous bear and surprised me after school. Thankyouuuuu! Then we headed to harbour front forlunch at pizza hut and you didn't dare to ride cable car with me :b hehe, loser you. Then met my parents for dinner. First dinner with my family! super happy. first time my boyfriend with me to watch me blow out my candles as i turned 15. Happy birthday to me.

Then, the moment came. 1st year. Thank you for your treats and everything baby. Universal studios was awesome. And although i only stayed till 7pm. I had fun with you baby. so much.

Thank you for all the gifts you gave me, Elmos, bears, birkenstocks, bracelets and everything (L)(L)(L).

Right now, i am sorry for everything that i've done to you. Hurting you, making you jealous. Everything. You are my gem, my diamond, my everything. I'm not prepared to lose you. I will never be prepared. I'm too dependent on you already. Right now, i know you don't wanna talk to me. Maybe i'm a pain in the ass already. But please don't do this to me? You know i love you, so much... :( please, forgive me.

And, when you go to genting, wear lots of clothings. Wear a thick jacket, eat alot, take care of yourself okay? When you go to the outdoor theme park, remember to wear shoes, wear long sleeves + jacket okay? You fall sick really easily, so drink plenty of water. And when you are in the bus or car when you're going up the hill to Genting, If you get dizzy, close your eyes. If your ears get blocked, hold your breath. Please do take care of yourself okay? I'm worried for you.

And i'll miss you deeply. I love you babyboo.