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Probably my last post till after N's! Life hasn't been going the way i wanted it to be. Life's been fragile. Life's been unfair. Life... just isn't good.

I thought you said you'd never leave. Where are you now?

Everything's in a mess. My head's in a whirlpool. My heart is broken into many pieces, i don't even know where i left it. I tell myself "i'm okay" but truth is, i know i'm not.
Yes, i'm not okay but i will be. In time. In the days to come, i'll get stronger.

Truth is, when we first started talking, i never knew i'd fall for you. But here i am, typing this bunch of shit. I really had the best times with you. Random silly things, phone calls. I remember the time we talked on the phone, hahaha. I forced you to listen to me brush my teeth. You were my bestest friend. Someone i could go to without hesitation. Someone who was willing to listen to me rant whenever i needed someone to listen. Someone who would come down to find me just because i wanted to get some tauhuay.
Remember the day you came to my house? Even if it was for just for a short while, i enjoyed the times i spent with you. You, pasting motivational stickers all over my table. Reading my messages and tryna act like me. Exchanging accounts and just all the random silly things we would talk about.
I have to admit, i feel so lost whenever we don't talk. I feel so lost...

I hate how clingy and affectionate i can get at times. How i get so fuckin' attached to someone and they just leave me there in days to come. Wow, fucking wow. You led me on but you disappeared. Where the hell am i supposed to go now?

Tell me if you want me back in your life, even as friends.

We're back to where we began, 4 years ago. When i was totally clueless about who you were. I didn't even know you existed. Strangers. Funny huh? How we used to be the bestest friends and now... we're nothing.
If you're reading this, i just wanna tell you i miss you. I miss the friendship we had.

"It hurts because it matters."















This post does not make any sense omg why am i even publishing it. Gaaaaaah, whatever. Goodnight. xx

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Well spent day yesterday with my favourite people! MJ square (Joshua, Jessica, Me), Paolo, Jyle, my brother and the birthday girl, Rairai. Freakin' long journey to cck.
Did the gangnam style in the middle of the road with J square. Did the helium balloon shit and the chubby bunny challenge. Took a video but scumbag computer doesn't let me upload it.

Let the pictures do the talking.

Idiots trying to untie the ballon.

Godsissy's #ootd

We decided that the toilet was a pretty awesome place to camwhore.

PRETTY PRETTY CUPCAKES.

My boyfriend guys!

Nah, jk he's my god bro.

We got photo bombed!

Now, it's really hard to find an appropriate photo of us.

Upskirt

Trust me, she has no bones in her body.

TROLL

Tryna show our double chin.

Tryna imitate the "Y U NO" meme. Seems like i failed.

Oh, nice legs dangling.

I love you slut.

Imitation of "act cute" girls #1

Imitation of "act cute" girls #2

Me: Eh glam ley.

Jess: Oh glam ah *does weird pose*

Me: Wuuuuut.... ok nvm just copy.

Failed overly attached girlfriend face #1

Failed overly attached girlfriend #2

With the birthday girl!

Love spending time w my godsister. :') and Joshua.



Till then.